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[draculabutbackwards]

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[no_innocents]

She often spoke of me acting 'as a man'. But the truth is that I am not just 'a man'. And there are responsibilities I have let go awry for far too long now, I think.

[draculabutbackwards]

I'm sure she didn't want you to shrink a foot and a half and die of sepsis from stepping on a bent nail. Learning-- Maybe re-learning, rather, the worthwhile bits of being human.

[no_innocents]

No, I did not think your mother was a madwoman.

...and she liked my height.

[draculabutbackwards]

My somewhat facetious point being she didn't want you to be human for human's sake. It was because there was something of value in it.

[no_innocents]

...yes, son, I had gathered that.

But the problem is more complicated than that. And we never got to that sort of discussion.

[draculabutbackwards]

I do see that. But I don't think she'd ever object to an effort to make things better on a fundamental level.

[no_innocents]

I don't think she would either. But, neither of us will know for some time.

[draculabutbackwards]

...Some time is quite a tectonic shift, though.

[And some part of him still whispers never. He doesn't trust good things.]

[no_innocents]

It is.

But it seems more likely given... this.

[ Graduation. And him accomplishing it. ]

[draculabutbackwards]

Sorry, I ought to be ecstatic, and I am! I'm just...

[Having trouble translating knowledge into an emotion and letting himself actually have the damn thing?]

[no_innocents]

You'll notice I'm not having a party myself.

It feels like... I'm halfway through a task. Not completed, whatever it's 'supposed' to be.

[draculabutbackwards]

There is a sense of holding one's breath.

[Well.]

Not the most useful metaphor on your end, but...

[no_innocents]

...something like that.

[draculabutbackwards]

At least you know what I mean.

[no_innocents]

[ Just the lightest teasing smile. ]

I usually do. Though sometimes you do surprise me.

Let me bother you no longer.

I love you. And... I will do my best in my new position.

[draculabutbackwards]

You aren't a bother, but I'm sure we both have plenty to do. Love you, too.

[Some things are complicated, but he's just happy to have those particular words back.]